Let's Talk :: Tiredness
I hate feeling tired, it gets in the way of everything and is so distracting and numbing. Does anyone wake up feeling genuinely refreshed? I feel like it's a myth, a conspiracy perpetuated by an unknown force to make you feel bad for your sleepy eyes and constant yawns. At least I hope that's true as I am perpetually tired everyday and it's exhausting. I don't think I've always been like this, but I do remember feeling this way at university and I haven't noticed it letting up so far. It doesn't seem to matter how much sleep I get, how much exercise I do, or how much or little screen time I have, I am always tired. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a total sleepy mess all the time, there are days when I do feel pretty energised but generally I feel like this encapsulates me.
The thing about feeling tired that I hate the most is that heavy, numb ache of tiredness that rests just behind your eyes. It's such a niggling feeling that is incredibly irritating. I know I'm not the only person that feels this way, as a few people I know have similar tiredness tendencies. It does make me wonder whether it's because of the lifestyle of office inactivity, perhaps the extra hormones we pump into our bodies with the pill or the constant activity and bright lights of phone, computer and tv screens.
I'm not a morning person and never have been but I have been trying to be better with getting up early even on weekends so my sleep schedule isn't completely messed up. I also find that waking up earlier and getting out of the house makes me feel good, especially when it's so quiet out and the air seems to feel cleaner, but it's tough to part with those comfy sheets. I have also noticed that even though exercise makes me tired and doesn't seem to make much of a difference in general I do seem to feel a little more 'with it' (more alive if you will) when I'm exercising or just after. I have contemplated my decision to be on the pill, but there are so many horror stories of alternatives out there that I think maybe it's better the devil you know?
Anyway this is to say that if I've yawned whilst in conversation with you, it is definitely not because I find you boring or am uninterested it's just my bodies natural reflex to life, haha!